i really need you to be there for me right now but i have no idea where the hell you are right now. you could be w/ your ex since apparently she still fucks you on the low. you have no idea how fucking hurt i am right now and i can’t let it out. you got me attached to you, you don’t understand. i don’t want you to go but technically you were never there. you were never mine so i can’t lose you either. i’ve lost so much bc of you. for what? so you can just make me grow feelings for you and step on them like they were nothing more than an annoying pest. is that what you wanted all along? do you even care for me? do you know what you’re doing to me? you probably do and you probably don’t give a damn. i don’t think i can deal w/ something like this. i knew i stayed away from guys for a reason but for just one moment i thought you would be different. that you wouldn’t be like them. you would be better. but hell was i wrong. you don’t give two shits about me but here i am crying the whole god damn ocean bc of you. how fucking lovely right? i guess that’s what you wanted. for me to cry over you like the pathetic fuck i am. just forget it.